Frustrated and Stagnant

If I had to describe my life recently it would be with the words frustrated and stagnant. All of my desires and moment by moment plans are frustrated through outside forces. I feel like a puddle in the middle of a field; there are lovely grasses and wildflowers all around me and the sunshine reaches me to warm me, but the sun's rays are just enough for algae to grow in me and not enough to evaporate my water. How long have I been this way? How much longer can I go on this way?

I can blame my frustration on others, their plans taking precedence over my own. The stagnation goes along with it. I feel stagnant because I haven't had the freedom lately to go and do and see and just BE. There is a dark grey cloud hovering always within view, blocking the sun and making my way murky.

What a picture.

I have to be honest, though, and realize that my frustration is truly caused by my own selfish heart which desires MY way above others, MY plans above others, and my frustration when my way is thwarted is simply my own lack of submission to the authorities and priorities that the LORD has set for me.

Am I really stagnant? Is there nothing I can do while I sit in this place and time? Again my eyes are clouded and blind because I am not able to fulfill MY own wishes, be creative and enjoying the warmth of the day in the way that I would prefer. There are nearly infinite ways that I can DO and CREATE and BE while in this place if I would simply adjust my attitude and my limited vision to be in line with my Father's; my wonderful, infinitely creative LORD.

Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
Matthew 11:28-30

But I am poor and needy; yet the Lord thinketh upon me: thou art my help and my deliverer; make no tarrying, O my God.
Psalm 40:17